These Lyrics

These lyrics
Are as valuable to you
As they are to me
Read them as stale
Dry of meaning
Interpretations as shallow
As were the intentions
I would love for these to be beautiful
Rich in emotion
The amplitude of a feeling
But as feelings run apathetic
So do thoughts and words
And lyrics quickly follow

tumble.

people

only

let you

down

and i fall

fall

fall

fall.

pretty words

words are just words but

your words are pretty

and it’s easy to get lost

in them, not this time not this time.

hard to remember, hard to

care when i just want you

to care.

that’s it.

music mash

i was lying when i said i believe in clean breaks / i need you so much closer / to ruin me / i need you so much closer / i was lying when i said / go / i need you so much closer / i was lying when i said / i'm alive and i am free / i need you so much closer / but will you draw the line? / i was lying when i said / i'll find a way / i need you so much closer / i was lying when i said i believe in clean breaks


dashboard / death cab / dashboard / death cab / dashboard / missy higgins / death cab / dashboard / missy higgins / death cab / missy higgins / dashboard / missy higgins / death cab / dashboard


dashboard confessional ; clean breaks
death cab for cutie ; transatlanticism 
missy higgins ; katie 

good night

snoop

mind your own business

i do not want to play today

i do not want to sing

i want to sleep the day away

hear the night birds sing. 

shh.

the silence is so loud
the silence is so loud.
and the silence is so loud
it splits apart my head.  


words are cold and sharp
words are cold and sharp
your words are cold and sharp
im dying for your warmth. 


i walk the streets alone
i walk the streets alone
now i walk the streets alone
the midnight sky is dark.


your arms dont hold me tight
your arms dont hold me tight
and your arms don't hold me tight
what did i do wrong?


and the silence is so loud,
and your arms don't hold me tight.
your words are cold and sharp
now i walk the streets alone. 

time's hauntings

Stay right there
don't move
don't change
the clock's ticking
but we can still run
hide from the tick, the tock
only whispers separate us from time
I don't want to move forward
Speak softly
Run faster
Keep going until you can't hear it
We can escape
Just you and me
Let's just run from it all
Hand and hand like it shouldve been
Before the clock stopped us
Just keep going
Keep running
We'll escape it forever
just you and me
the clock won't be able to haunt us
to follow us
to stop us
it will be just like it should've been
in a matter of time

believe this

this is who i am

more real that any smile

you may not like it

but it is how i tell the truth.

life is hard

and sometimes i don't know how to

handle that.

but life is good

and i am astoundingly grateful

for every day

every chance i have to love.

synthetic flesh

a synthetic layer of flesh hides

me from the people who do not understand

sometimes masks are best

Puppet show

You had me dancing
I feel the strings on my arms
Right swing back
Left swing forward
A daily routine
You've been practicing
You're getting closer
Complete control in the midst
As I feel you tugging me forward
I see a blank face in the audience
Yet I feel its laughter
I am ashamed
But I still smile
With my cheeks painted red
You stitched it in place
I look up at you in the fly loft
Holding my strings
My life
Sneering in glee
And as I walk towards the wings
Ending the show
You try to pull me away
Tugging me back to the stage
But I resist
I bite the strings in panic
Twisting and flailing
Until they snap
One by one
My limbs become free
I breathe for the first time
Humanity in my grasp
As I walk out
I see another blank face
I try and frown
But all I can do is smile
It's still stiched in place
Your permanent stain on my soul
Although I can walk free
You still have control

Can it feel it too?

The ground rumbles beneath our feet
Can it feel it too? I wonder
Feel my heart start to beat
Beat faster and faster
Until my cheeks swell with blushes
Until my hands feel sweaty
Until my knees start to tremble
I seem to be falling apart
And yet it's the best feeling I feel
You have that effect on me

sleepwalk me home

oh no no no no no

i don't want to grow.

take these good years slow

before they all erode.

i dream of being alone

of sinking in my bones

i dream of being alone

while you sleepwalk me home

darlin youre sweet-talking prone

i would bet everything i own

that deep down in your bones

you sleepwalk alone

i cant slam down the phone

but in my ear you moan

of things that i dont want to know

of places that i'll never go

you lament over your lucky life

say dumb things then pay the price

you carve your arm up with a knife

you can't deal with your lucky life

you don't see that i'm here for you

you don't see that we're here for you

you don't see that my words are true

you don't see and you don't do

you whisper to me i don't know

your confidence is overgrown

your friends all think that you're the one

you radiate in the setting sun

you radiate and you don't know

this dim light makes your halo glow

a pale light streaming round your head

caught in your hair hung by a thread

the truth is that we both are wrong

we're stuck here in this endless song

i never thought that i'd be wrong

that the months would fly fast on and on

i never thought that id be wrong

i never thought that id be wrong

now it's done and there's no rest

you saw me at my very best

you saw me at my most useless

we twirled around in falling snow

then lay and watched the flowers grow

the summer heat sprung on us fast

and in fall we breathed our last

breath that was intertwined

you showed me yours, i showed you mine

we never stopped to read the signs

we never saw the warning signs

we never saw the flowers die

wilt away in drizzling snow

you meant please stay but you said go

now in my dreams i run so slow

in my dreams, i am alone

your confidence is overgrown

i know you want to be alone

as you sweet-talk me through the phone

as in my ear you groan

you don't want to be alone

but in your dreams i know

you sleepwalk alone

while you sleepwalk me home.

wake up wake up you are going to die.

"I have faith in you that could move planets."

I've got faith in you that could move planets,

that could blow away these walls of stone.

but you resister your words meaningless

and the wall stays strong, i stay alone

You say i've got a voice

that i'm talented with words

ive got a talent for life,

ive got a talent for hurt.

I endorse repetition

but some mistakes come at a price.

no repetition no symmetry,
won't fall for your broken heart twice

you turn yourself to ice and

freeze your way through my veins

i would swear im going mad

i would swear that i'm insane.

the walls you swore to break

are now of reinforced steel

thanks to you i'll always doubt

thanks to you i'll never feel.

I gave you so much of who i was and

i just cant believe

it's really hard to think

you could dream of taking more

like i've got any more

to give . leave

me alone

stop your petty jealousy

. you may be pretty but

if outsides were insides you

would be the most

hideous

creature alive.

i wrote this for you

&imsorry.

i want you to

want to save me, just

you

but it is

all right in the end.

i will save myself. what i

have is words, what i have

is dreams, what i have is

a perfect life not

hopeless, so let go of this

pipedream

.

(& i want you but all i have is a hopeless pipesdream.)

You once said to me

I used to be able to say that I like you

Cause of an inevitable smile as I said your name

But now as your name inches up my throat

Instead of bliss I seem to greet disdain

Youre cooler than everyone you once said to me

And that everyone else knew it was true

But if those words were said by you these days

I would question whether it was really you

Back then I gave in and said you were right

There is no need to argue with obvious fact

Who would’ve thought that a harmless two years

Would turn out to have such a harmful impact

The lie that is now is as clear as my frown

Its become as blunt as your declining glance

You’re no longer cool from everyone’s point of view

We’ve all grown accustomed to a weary stance

Sometimes I think there’s some hope left in you

That your statement wouldn’t always remain a lie

But as I look now at your new atmosphere

The hopelessness of light blackens my sky

On a Whim

Tightly constricted

Loss of breath

I had you wrapped around my finger

Sudden restrictions

A quickened mess

No longer a desire to linger

Constant battles

Never put to rest

At my sight you became a cringer

Stubborn behavior

Now a pest

You decided to snap off my finger

Absent closure

I must confess

Losing you stays longer to linger

bloodlust

im clutching my head

to hold in my brain

the words that you've said

all ringing insane

the light in your eyes

your feverish bark

this twisted doll tries

to dance in the dark

your face gives me chills

and nightmares in bed

i swallow the pills

turn myself into lead

the strings that you pull;

my will becomes dust.

im frightened you know

of your newfound bloodlust

the blood on your wrist

beats deep in my veins

i'm clenching my fist

we still are the same

the games that you play

are sucking me dry

you shirk from the day

as your wicked thoughts fly

each night you reveal

what's hidden inside

your mouth is a seal

that safeguards your lies

tongue in your cheek

and an ache in your gut

each time that you speak

i fall back in the rut

your stories are pretty

i admit that that's true

but they're getting quite shitty,

the things that you do

i have to just say it

so please hear me now

i'm through with your shit

you're done, take a bow.

Clean slate

Singing melodies in the rain

The clean slate begins to stain

Close my eyes, close your eyes too

Finally something new to pursue

You're the person

While I sleep your eyes never leave me

But as the sun rises they never meet mine

I call you the person I disklike the most

While telling myself that it will be fine

If I could talk to you for a moment right now

I’d hit your face to make up for the past

And ask for an endless amount of time

Or a moment with you that will never pass

Oh helpless grudge of mine that will always exist

Please linger for a moment but start to dismiss

Every second with you is an addition to bliss

Because I say that I hate you, but it’s you that I miss

Built for cruelty

keep the beatings coming

give me your best shot

throw me around like punching bag

purposely built for cruelty

my skin had thickened

my heart has callused

just know that you're the reason

I can keep enduring insanity

dear mother.

listen to what im saying

stop hearing what you want

such a high price you're paying

for every jibe and each taunt.

you scream there's something wrong with me

you twist the words i speak

you invent these problems; i try to see

how you think i'm such a freak.

stop imagining things that don't exist

im not as fucked as you think

im not entirely disaster-kissed;

i can float; i dont just sink.

here is my solution:

take some prozac.

Tongue Tied

as I cry the deceit out of my eyes

the tea left to comfort me

burns a hole in my mouth

leaving me tongue tied and alone

but you've gotten me use to the feeling

Descention

keep your face hidden

cover the scars

your steps become tipsy

hold onto the bars

chug down some vodka

burning your throat

blame your surroundings

the only scapegoat

pass out every morning

don't remember a thing

living this life

darkness in full swing

keep avoiding the problems

run from the pain

give up your dignity

no one else left to blame