Splintering strings down my spine
one by one
pulled apart with a flickering tug

I know what you do to me
day by day
but I can't help the falling

So which is worse
Living the with hopeless hope
or facing the helpless help

They're trying to help
they're trying to understand
but they don't
never have

Dunking me under the waves
breath by breath
I feel myself sink, but won't let go

I'm just your loose stringed puppet
dance by dance
under your control, wishing it reality

So which is worse
Living the with hopeless hope
or facing the helpless help

I know what you're doing
I get it, you got me
They're all right
always have been

So which is worse
Attempting to escape the unescapable
Or settling in the unsettled

So lonely

after all

this time

still so lonely

the sun

in the sky

reminds me

of what I'm not

the tree branches

whisper

they reminds me

of what i've lost

so lonely

after all

this time

still so lonely

the world turns

and the breeze

cartwheels

through my hair

the birds sing

and the fields

beckon

me to dance

head back

arms out

spinning

through the world

so lonely

after all

this time

i'm not lonely.

I grow more silent day by day

I'm worried my vocal chords will break

I'm worried of what you think of me

I'm worried to say what I believe

I'm worried these pants are too tight

I'm worried this shirt won't fit right (these words won't sound right)

I'm worried that you will forget me

I'm worried to say what I believe

All the words are torn and frayed

memories fade day by day

normal is a distant dream

I'm conscious of how soft I seem

you said you'd stay; you had to go

I don't know why; I'll never know

Hope aches here and then it leaves

I'm scared to say what I believe

Your lips

on the soft lines

of my veins

Nothing

ever can

stay the same

I'm worried it was all meaningless

I'm worried this hope is pointless

I'm worried this cycle will not end

I'm worried I let you mean too much

Days go on and I get dim

I hate these damn(/stupid) expectations

We could fall back easily

I'm worried to say what I believe

Your lips

on the soft lines

of my veins

Nothing

ever will

stay the same

I'm worried that I have lost my touch

I'm worried that I didn't mean much

I'm worried of what you think of me

I'm worried to say what I believe

Hope aches here and then it leaves

I'm scared to say what I believe

I'm worried that you will forget me

I'm worried to say what I believe

I'm worried that you will forget me

I'm worried to say what I believe.

starting out

you came to me

with broken bones

and everything

tied in a knot

around your throat

you said to breathe

you had to choke

between the cushions

died the ghost

of that knot

around your throat

you were happy

clear as day

you cried to leave

i cried to stay

pages of paper

my wedding gown

the years snuck by

without a sound

your face grew chiseled

my hair turned grey

you held my hand

i walked away

your demons fled

but here's the thing

they're still here

inside my ring

binding me

making me choke

i wear your knot

around my throat.

I miss sitting next to you guys
I miss the laughter
I miss the comfort
Now I'm 2000 miles away
Eight years away
An irreversible distance
And you're all still there
Together with no spaces
No creases to fill
And I would give anything
To go back one day
And have it all be the same
Just as I left it

Just like everyday of forever
She watched him walk, just walk, just walk
Infatuated by an apathy
Or patience of mock, of mock, of mock

Words that never satisfied
Her reasons to fall, to fall, to fall
But that glimpse of a single linger
Forced her to crawl, to crawl, to crawl

A sickening type of desire and lust
Blood so sweet, blood of rust
Always a chase, a race of rage
Both too stubborn to exit the cage

Touched by the grimm
He was faced with fate
Fearing the sickening rate
At which it was caving

Capabilities of passion
Fought with love and rage
Tearing out the page
Only to paste it in

And page by page
She caressed his corruption
With a soft hand
And a sharp tongue

And line by line
He slipped in suspension
Too dignified for love
Staying lonely, so lonely.