How dare you
not fair to
theres no need for deceit
discreet
you can still defeat
me and my fantasies
can't you see
that I just wanted honesty
you promised me
said to me
how it would be
and a believed you
no reason not to
I know that I've got to
just don't lie
playing sly
to my attention
and good intentions
I gave you air
time to stare
moments to glare
time to repair
and there was no reason
to lie is to treason

Why are people so inclined to display false intentions
to love someone and hide it for fear of rejection
to love someone in itself is nothing to hide
vulnerability and shame are the consequences
no, not punishments, just a step from ideal
to look directly into their eyes as they stare
what a rush compared to aversion and gawk
putting your feelings on display is confidence
what a burden it lifts from your chest
as the outcome is placed in their hands
the worst scenario being one without change
to end up nowhere is the largest tragedy
but what tragedy is one with no regret?

Mind cleared, thoughts smeared
Not sure how I feel about this
Drowning in an OD of feeling
or sinking in a pit of apathy

It's unbelievable, it's unbelievable
and quite frankly I'm shaken
Still seeking where it came from
and pushing to discover its end

How can I be blamed for this
tossing of words and smiles
when my heart was unveiled
too fast for my mind to follow

Humiliation or redemption
unfortunately out of my control
two minds so alike
that their flaws keep them apart

Dear Julia
I just wanted to say hello
It seems that we've grown apart
as we learned to grow
The distance between our houses
has always stayed the same
but the distance between the two of us
has nothing more to gain
Dear Julia
I remember we never strayed apart
I told you all my dreams
Which you supported from the start
We were the best of friends
Your house was like my home
and my family was your family
my backyard for you to roam
Dear Julia
Sometimes I hear a song
that reminds me of those times
and how far they're gone
As I ride past your house
I know that our friendship's done
but sometimes I look back
and wonder where it went wrong

stormy eye

stormy eye,

i loved you dark into the summer

your pretty cheek

molded in my fingers

i felt nothing

the sheets whispered softly

smooth porcelain

in the pale morning glow

i loved you and

i felt nothing at all.

stormy eye,

i loved you dark into the summer

breathe separately,

the air is running out.

She keeps her chin up
Her shins cuffed
to the right stuff
Watching their legs twist
With the darkness
so foolish

She knows to be classy
with her lips sassy
and her heart brassy
Watching them laugh free
But she disagrees
Always has a plea

They make her shatter
constant batter
waste matter
But somehow she's ashamed
The one to blame
Can't be tamed

There's always something twisted
Watch me stand by his side
Smile plastered on my face
From behind I've learned to hide

All is perfect, all is kind
Love is anything but blind

But it means nothing to me now
Not anymore, not in this life
Smiles have lost their touch
But not enough to clutch the knife

Words escaping from their lips
No more trusting anyone
Even when there's certainty
Drop it, leave it
It's there to deceive you
No one can please you