marker

you painted a black x over your heart

and said you couldn't find it

my fingers covered the marker

the rain dribbled a line down

your chest, you said you would

stop looking if only i would smile.

today

i swear you are a broken remote

stuck flipping back and forth

lick your finger

feel the wind

what's it going to be today?

oh tell me what does the paper read?

bombing or newlyweds

oh tell me are we at war?

your accusations, your jealousy

in the end they all mean nothing

when you whip around

my mistake,

not today not now

no hugs no love

i dont like who you are

mind changing that?

im so tired

i dont know

which mistake ive made this time

what is wrong with this?

the picture wont come out

the edges won't melt

the pieces won't fit

Look me in the eye

don't walk away
rack up some courage
look me in the eye
tell me why you're so restricted
so cemented to this new idea
the concept of ignorance
pretend to not notice me
pretend that I'm not here
it only confirms the suspicions
you say that you never cared
so why's it so hard to look me in the eye
what are you afraid that i'll see
you never cared, remember
why must it be awkward
why can't we say simplicities
civil hellos and goodbyes
why must it be all or nothing
you shouldn't have to make such an effort
an effort to erase me from your mind
if in the end you had no heart to mend

The fine print

a dictionary was thrust into your hands
for words that you still did not understand
you flipped through the pages of endless lines
hoping to find what we've all learned it time
and under the fine print it said quite clear
that leave me alone means please stay here

look up

the blue sky laughs

the black sky chills

the pink sky stuns

the red sky fades

but the grey sky is free.

your way out

Im so tired of breathing

Im so tired of sleep.

Im so tired of lying

But honesty is cheap.

Im sick of these memories

Im sick of the dark.

Im sick of my every flaw

But everyone is scarred.

Baby I believed you

When you said it would be okay

So I didn’t see you

Slowly fade away

Im sorry I wasn’t there

To hold back your tears

Sometimes I do get lonely

And sink into my fears.

My eyelids bear a message;

Theyre carved with your last words.

It kills me every time I blink

But it’s no more than I deserve.

I should have seen it sooner

I should have held your hand

Instead of spreading my fingers

And letting you sink like sand.

But like a cliché it’s much too late

Because now youre gone

Im flipping through these pictures

And lifting my voice in song.

The truth, it never sets you free

It traps you like a cage

Id call it impossible to get out

But it seems you found a way.

And I miss you.

finger painting

you draw the creativity

out through my fingertips

and laugh as i stare in wonder.

but all i can say is

but all you can hear is

the words beat through my blood

Your stupid ignorance

Now we're both looking with nothing to say
Your stupid ignorance but you won't look away
If I said that catching you didn't light a fire
Than you would be honest calling me a liar

Why

Why
Am I always to one to care
the one to stare
to one to quake
the one to break
Why should I sit here and write you a song
When it's all your fault
that it all went wrong
These lyrics will never reach your ears
The message won't be clear
But it's one you need to hear

poison

you are poison and i am

better off without you

better off without you

the wreckage keeping me afloat

well it's finally made me see

im better off without you

and i dont miss a thing.

kick me down:

twist my arm

pull my hair.

break me down:

words and lies

again black and blue

then repeat

all in the name of friendship.

you are poison and im

better off without you

better off without you

this wreckage keeping me afloat

well it's finally made me see

i'm better off without you

and i don't miss a thing.

Sharing the sky

What an insightful thought
that the endless blue
up above you
is the same across the loom of land and sea
the twinkling of stars
in hues of yellow
soft and mellow
Are as far away from you as they are from me
although our hug casts a shadow of a thousand miles
overstretching across the plains
I look above and feel a sense of comfort
cause the sky above you is just the same