A Heart and an Ice Pick

Ignorantly
I shelled my heart
A layer of ice
Protected it from emotion
From pain and happiness
And like deja vu
You picked up your ice pick
and hacked away
And if your pick wasn't enough
your smile helped
warming my heart
melting the ice
But you don't even know
You can't tell what you're doing
It's a part of us that we can't control
We can't stop it
We're both stuck and tangled
And so my heart was warmed
but the pick went to deep
My heart is wounded
the blood never ceasing
You beat life into me again
A life I wanted to spend with you
A life you didn't know you had saved
A life that you would waste
And a heart that was protected
specifically from you
is now raw and deformed
an open wound
one that you will never fill
as much as I wish you would